Safety and Stillness. Tonight.
Question No 1:
I have a sore foot. Can I sit still on the floor in a 5 Rhythms dance class tonight that will be whirling with movement, others, music and actually connect with the truth of BEING the source of my own safety and security, the source of my feelings, wellbeing, with the resources to express what feels ok for me in each moment that unfolds…. without basing my experience on what is happening externally as the ‘dominant force’, the instigative energy therefore being EXTERNAL.
OR
Is the Instigative force for the experience that is me unfolding (Infolding) into each moment coming from an internal presence of Being the source of it’s own safety and security, feelings, wellbeing, resources. Can I feel it, can I BE it???
How can I connect with this presence, this felt sense of Being in my body as the AUTHORITY of what is happening in it?
Autonomy means Self governing.
If I do not have conscious awareness of my own Survival Patterns (programming in the mind/body system from past experiences both personal and collective)… then I do not have a chance to have actual Autonomy over my own felt sense. Those ‘patterns’ are meeting every moment and keeping me in a physical, mental and emotional story that creates some level of fight or flight response in my system continuously.
Question No 2:
If I don’t have Conscious autonomy over my own felt sense of Being in this Body right now, then what am I giving it away to?
This second question to myself is always THE question, moment to moment, that I get better and faster at answering (most of the time!).
The answer is a Belief, a story of external Power which is fuelled by generations of unprocessed Trauma that I am transmuting every day in and through my own personal experience. And when I do it, and reclaim my autonomy over my own experience of BEING in this body, it FEELS fucking amazing.
I use the method I share with others based on 4 Powerless Survival Patterns that between them encompass the whole spectrum of human behaviours and yet are unique and specific. I introduce them as ‘Characters’, we can then see and feel how we play their roles and they are recognisable in the trivia of our day to day interactions with others.
It’s a process of expanding awareness of our own beliefs and imprints (Misinformation to our mind/body system) and learning to shift from Fight/Flight (Unconscious Reaction) to the felt sense of ‘ah, it’s OK in here in this body, I have absolute autonomy over this BEING no matter what is happening in the external, and therefore….. conscious choice of response.
The ONLY situation this would be an unrealistic dynamic would be when actively needing to BE in flight/flight. Earthquake, physical danger, life at stake type scenario.
So back to tonight, is my life going to be at stake?? I don’t think so…. Thinking isn’t going to help, what I need is a method to shift and access the capacity to experience myself as the source of my safety, wellbeing, resources and creative potential. It’s IN me, it’s not dependent on what I see ‘out there’.
For me, tonight, this is one of my worst nightmares – because to be still is to be a sitting duck for the unpredictability of others behaviour, I will be a ‘target’, I need to be afraid!! Omg I can feel the horror as I write that, I have an old imprint that says I won’t be safe if I have to be still. Personally, when I can move freely, I can hide in movement on a dance floor, I can blend in, whirl around, disguise myself.
So, off I go to the dance on my own personal journey of infolding into the Truth of who and what I really am.
We are not the stories our body/mind system tells us. We absolutely can RE-INFORM our Being, we just have to be able to identify what the Misinformation is. The method I share brings this Misinformation to us in a way that we can see and feel it so that we can transmute it through our body and open up a different experience of BEING in this day right now.